I used to pray

I used to pray to God to make him mine...
While there were signs...
While by somehow... someway 

I saw him in little things in my life
But now those signs are gone...
And he's no longer mine 

(I wonder if he ever was...)

So please God

I BEG You...
Take him away from my heart...

Nothing makes sense!
I'm so tired.. So Sad... So hurt..

It is asking too much?
Do I really deserve all this pain?
Was I so wrong just because I believed in love?